Whatever you define it as.
Posted on: Friday, April 20, 2007
Posted at: 12:56 AM
Fine, I've been trying to do some thinking this few days, and i've come to this conclusion : I just let my problems & other folks take advantage of me. Yeah, i've been fucking emo this days. mood swings and shit.

as i speak to others & look back myself, i wonder : have i been making a wrong choice all this while?

be it my random thoughts trying to manipulate my thinking or whether it's just a simple damn fact, i know for fucking sure that i'm really sick of this.

I feel more & more like some fucker desperately clinging on to a 'friendship' while i just get ordered around, like some fucker who works for so much just to end up with nothing.

I've been going with the flow all this while, it's been fun, but really beneficial? no.

I've been the pathetic fuck who's following others around.

Difference in thinking? yeah, hell yeah.
I'm following while you're leading your way.

Sure, i'm not perfect,
but no one is.

if y'all wanna hate me for this, go ahead.
i've thought about it, it's better then blindly following.

I think of all the excuses that were given,
and all the times i've been nice and ended up getting into trouble.

You want me to be agreeable 24/7,
while you choose when to be & not to?

How it seems like you're all conspiring.
Jealousy? Pathetic.
All those times when y'all are telling each other stuff,
trying to keep it from me.

So, blame it on my random thoughts if you want.
How much is my random thoughts to be blamed?
You decide, ask yourself how true this is.

Disliked reading this? Kindly - Fuck off.

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My heart wants to be with you,
rather then them.

at least you smile,
which gives me a reason to smile.

I feel good with you,
be it silently or when we're having fun.
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